The Beginning

It is the night of Saturday, February 3rd 2024. I am at the moment sitting at a table watching over a room with sleeping homeless men and women as I work my shift at a shelter. In this quiet night, with just the silent snores and grumbles of the unconscious, I find time to write, write my first entry into this personal blog, a blog which only I will probably ever read. I have been planning to start writing seriously for several years, but I have only just now begun my first entry. I am a young writer. Filled with the excitement and spirit of adventure characteristic of my age, I begin this journey with optimism for what I could potentially achieve and what type of writer I will eventually become at the end of this long journey called life. Will I end up writing frightening horror, exciting sci-fi/fantasy, or heart wrenching romance? Perhaps my talents will lead me to become a great nonfiction writer, dabbling in such disciplines as philosophy and/or politics. Whatever I do, I want to become a great story teller. Having finished America's K-12 public education system a while ago, I think I possess the basic, essential tools to be able think coherent thoughts and write words. And because I wish to become a master story teller, I must become a master of the craft of writing. I must refine and improve my skill in telling things and expressing ideas. And so, I pledge today, that I will try to write at least once a week for the rest of my life. It doesn't matter how much I am able to write or what I write about, but I must just write something every week, if possible. 

"Why do you want to become a great story teller?" you may be asking. Well, put simply, I think it is one of the greatest things a sentient being with an intellect can do in life. I think stories are a very important thing. I think stories are the ultimate vessel for the transfer of intellectual and spiritual truth. That might be hyperbolic, I'm not really sure. But I think that stories are important. God did not give his word to mankind in the form of just a generic rule book. He actually gave his message through one of the greatest storybooks of all: The Bible. The Bible is essentially a collection of important stories. The stories in the books of the Bible are great because they are true and good and reveal true things about human nature and the nature of the world we live in. I think that what every great story teller tries to do is replicate what the Bible does so well, discover or tell truth and goodness and shape the heart and soul of a reader toward the good. Since not all writers agree on what the true and the good is, logically it must be that some writers are wrong about the true and the good. And it most certainly possible that I will never find out what the true and the good really is. But I think the pursuit of the true and the good is a noble and just pursuit, one that every human must strive to discover in order to fulfill their purpose. A human has a mind and an intellect and ability to think, so a human must think. 

I also think that writing might just be healthy for me. I don't know if it is because I have been out of school for a while and my mind has just been idle for so long that my brain is becoming weak or maybe I'm just already getting old and my brain is deteriorating faster than normal, but my mind is not as sharp, fast, and efficient as I feel it once was. I still remember things that I learned a long time ago. I can still recite a hundred digits of Pi and I recently re-took the SAT two months ago and scored a 1540 out of 1600, which is a good score for me. But I am not as smooth, efficient, and fast as I once was. Well I guess I was never really that smooth, efficient, and fast generally. But when I want to be smooth, efficient, and fast currently, it takes a lot more effort and will power to use my brain to do what I want to do. For example at work, I have to stop and think for a while to remember the tasks I have done during a job and what I need to do next. Things that I think I should be able to remember and learn quickly after several repetitions, I no longer am able to learn quickly, at least not as quickly and easily as I used to I feel. I am not able to remember exactly what tasks I need to do and in what order as quickly as I used to or at least I have to stand and think for a while what it is I need to do for a job. I think that the cause of this problem is that I am out of school and am a victim of the digital age. Staring at a screen all day with many fast and rapid and stimulating "shorts" or other videos on YouTube, I have lost or have not properly developed the ability to concentrate and live well. Because I am not as concentrated and disciplined in my learning and understanding of my surrounding and life roles, I lose the ability to gain knowledge and retain it, as any healthy, intelligent human should be able to do. By thinking, reading, writing, and concentrating a lot more, I hope to become a human that is truly present and devoted to his life and life purpose. I hope that becoming a better writer and reader will give me a more intelligent and healthy mind. 

Another reason I want to write and become a great story teller is because stories are just cool. Whether it is imaging myself as a jedi fighting evil droids in Felucia or Tatooine, or as a wizard dueling a death eater on a broom in the midst of a dark storm, or even as batman fighting crime in the dark city of Gotham. I think that stories are exciting and energizing. Immersing myself into a compelling, exciting, and real story is one of the great joys I think I have experienced in this life. I hope to become a true master of creating that effect in the hearts and minds of other readers. 

And so, I will now write. I will write every week, and as much as I can. I will become a great storyteller one day. But, I will not reveal my name here, for now at least. When I write, I will write what I think. But in this era I live in, there are consequences for openly thinking what you think, if what you think is not what certain people want you to think. In the 21st century, people get "cancelled" and lose their livelihoods for saying things that they believe to be true and may in fact be true, but that are not accepted by the elite in power or not accepted by a vocalized, motivated minority in power who the elite bow down to. Whatever the case, I know that saying and thinking certain things, if I ever think certain things that are disagreeable, could get me persecuted or "cancelled." And so, I write without a name. I am nameless. 

- Nameless Writer